I’ve decided to start my own business. It is the scariest thing I have ever decided to do. I’ve been thinking about it for a long time – kind of pie in the sky dreams since I was a kid and more seriously in the last year. I put it off for a little bit to buy, gut and renovate our new home and then to re-do my parent’s house. And now that I've got the interior decorator/contractor out of me, I’m settled and ready to go. But why is it so scary if it’s something I’ve always wanted? It’s the first time I’m doing something that’s all mine and I’m doing it on my own. Of course I have an amazing support system in my family and friends, but when it boils down to it – if it fails, it’s all on me.
I’ve worked as a clothing designer for several years, but always for large corporations. It’s such a different experience – I have no bargaining power (I’m used to working with hundreds of thousands of units, not ten – literally 10 units), I’m doing way more financial analysis and number crunching than I ever expected, and I am totally alone during the day. There are some days when I realize that I haven’t heard the sound of my voice until 7:30pm when my husband comes home from work. Of course, I’ve been hearing a voice all day bouncing ideas around in my head, but it’s such a different experience to not be able to turn to a friend or co-worker at some point during the day and say, “hey – what do you think about this?” or “Please tell me you watched Glee last night!”.
So here I am again having not spoken to a soul all day and am turning to the blog to at least get some of my thoughts out there in the universe. At least my vocal chords will be well rested for…. I’m not sure what people do after they’ve rested their vocal chords for 20 hours, but I’m definitely ready.